Paradise

Beautiful faces

All through the beautiful places

Smiling eyes

Gleaming stories of life

Something about your magical muse takes me away to a sweet paradise

And I’m falling in love

But this time there is no pain

No suffering madness

No broken vessels or veins

Horizontal in motion

Right on the track that I ride

And I’m falling in love with you right by my side

The air – light and fresh

As the wind hits my face

Through my hair – breezy caress

I feel love all over the place

That when must I return

From my coach to a pumpkin

And my slippers are gone

Back to roaches and bumpkins

May you stay in heart

So that I shall return

Back home to fresh starts

As I continue to churn

Last phase of healing those burns

From the lessons I’ve learned

As far as I am concerned

Unraveling knots from happiness is the fruit I have earned

From the past that I’ve suffered

No more painful entrapment

In the discovery of knowing where I belong as it resonates with the entire frequency of my truest soul

Namaste

Bloodline

I remember when I was a child my aunt had told me, “blood is thicker than water”.  I can distinctly remember the importance of her intent behind the clear sound of wording that traveled through her instructive lung and into my ears while her eyes focused boldly into mine when she had pronounced each and every syllable of that phrase.  At that point in my life I, perhaps, didn’t fully comprehend the timeless meaning of this phrase, but I knew it possessed extremely significant importance so that someday I would comprehend it’s meaning with more profound internal relation.  Because of that, I would never forget those words.  Blood.  Blood is life.  Blood is energy.  Blood is movement.  Blood is passion. Blood is relativity.  Blood is necessary.  Blood is within us and keeps us alive and flows through us until we die.  Blood is everything.  It is our roots.  It is our genes.  It is our foundation for life.  Everything else is extra and we have the liberty to make the best of all that is extra because of blood.  Without blood, we would simply not be.  Like a tree grows freely without blood, it still has roots planted in the soils of earth.  Like a human that breathes because of the blood that it was created from, it is stronger with its bloodline. The family tree is non-negotiable in that it will always be a relatable fact of composition that trickles downward and upward and outward and then back inward into everything that we are because of it.  The lessons we learn as we grow and the experiences we have through our journey here in life are bound to change us and help us evolve to become wiser, older, stronger, better versions of what we once were; if we choose to follow such a path.  Our families that we are connected to within our network of bloodline will go through failures and successes, triumphs and tribulations, rewards and setbacks, victories and defeats; much as we all do, individually.  They may feel love, hurt, pain, pleasure, joy, bliss, anguish, destruction, and regrowth among many other emotional soul experiences during our time. But when it comes down to every last drop of life that we have, it should be recognized that blood is (and always will be) innately “thicker than water”.  In water, we swim through with ease.  But with such density and complexity as blood, we stick; we stick together.  Without each other, we quite simply would not be.  This lesson should be passed down for all generations to come so human existence will never forget that we are stronger together than alone and, furthermore, to appreciate and behold gratitude for our predecessors who have given us the true birthright to live; even when they say and do careless shit to piss us off.

The Cure

There is cure for emotional pain.  There is cure for the hurt that so many of us have endured after the traumas of getting betrayed by others that our hearts have cared for.  But this cure starts within our own selves.

Many of us have been involved in that group of friends that just created chaos in our lives.  Or perhaps we’ve become emotionally involved with connections that were not as they seemed.  We trusted them with our feelings and then we’ve been shunned or stabbed by disappointments.  Or even that lover we once had who turned out to be a pathological liar or didn’t quite meet our emotional standards.  Perhaps a cheater, or an abuser, or just quite simply- not compatible.

But these are the situations in life that are meant to happen because they are meant to make us grow.  To make us evolve into more spiritually, mentally, physically, and emotionally mature beings; or at least that’s how it should be.

However, sometimes with pain comes loss.  We are supposed to gain from our setbacks and from our struggles but sometimes many drift away into a self loathing, people-hating, introverted culture of antitrust.  And these people are never really happy with themselves or with others even if they portray it as so.  They feel jaded and bitter and somehow become what they have went through and experienced- but not in a good way.  They become defeated.  They believe that this is how life has to be lived because they are so focused on the pain that they forget how to be happy.  To be involved, to be present, to be here, to be aware, to actually care.  To trust another we must learn to trust ourselves again.  You know… That gut instinct that says “yes this is what I actually want out of life”.  That deep rooted notion that says “I want to be happy” or “I want quality friendships, relationships, love”… and so on.  But when we slip off the rail and start treating people how we do not like to be treated or even how we may have been treated, our ego takes control over our presence and it creates a dark cloud that refuses to let happiness enter.  We ignore the people, places, and things that are out in this world trying to care about us. And, at this point, we are just letting life pass us by.

To escape such damage, there is some serious self reflection that needs to be done here.  This is when we should start to ask ourselves such questions like, “was I a nice person?” and “did I offer as much as I’ve been given by this wonderful friend of mine?” and “did I try to be involved with those who are kind?” and even “am I emotionally available?”.  By asking these questions we can find cognitive ways to take actions and make modifications to improve our spiritual well-being.  There is no need to dwell in the past and live in grief, mistakenly assuming that everyone is going to hurt you or that people will rob you of your happiness.  When you can find true console and security within yourself, you will then feel liberated enough to step back into this world with a good attitude and surround yourself with others who share the same genuine core beliefs.  It’s not necessarily easy, but it is worth it.

Some practices that can take your spirit to a place of happiness include:

Meditation

Exercize

Sober Living

Healthy Friendships & Relationships

Enjoying the work that you do and the people that you surround yourself with

Reading

Proper Nutrition

Sunlight

Aromatherapy

Spa Treatments

Writing

Getting to know new people

Going on adventures

Having authentic intimate conversations

Acts of kindness

Positive self talk

Good sleep

 

And sure- these may seem like the obvious but it’s crucial to be honest with ourselves as to how much effort we actually invest in such things prior to quickly writing off these cures as invalid- because -they are not only valid; they are crucial.  Most often we will eventually acknowledge that the most crucial step before practicing these steps is AWARENESS.  AWARENESS of yourSELF and AWARENESS of OTHERS.  Being AWARE that CHANGE may need to happen (by your own will to do so) for the good times to roll again.  And there you have it.  Anybody can be happy after being hurt.