Disappear

The phone rings

You call to tell me how you met another

All your possessions, goals, and mother

And your shallow talk of clutter

Of everything you have

And how it’s never good enough

While you proclaim that you are happy

And you’re the best from all the rest

But when do you ever rest from all your glory and success

Do you feel me?

But wait – you hate to cut this short

You’re too tall to lose at sport

And disorganized to sort it out over and again

You’re such a lonely friend

But I’ll let you go again

I’ve got another on the line this time

Like a story with no end

So disconnect

Should I take this other call?

But I’ll do it anyway

As if the next one’s gonna stay

But he’s just calling out to slay

And to talk about his day

After another crazy night

And how he’s gonna dim the lights

Cuz he’s got another flight

To another destination

Like his heart is on vacation from the truth

I hear him burning through his youth

Living fast from the past – he runs aloof

He’s gotta go

Because I know

And he doesn’t want to show it

How he knows the way I know it

So I let him go

And he flies back into the sky – or so it seems

Chasing all his dreams – like they are real

If I could teach a man to feel – then I would

But a student never learns

If they’re not open to such lessons

Even when life is there to test them

In their absence

When they are tardy

They’re working hard to crash the party – then they run

Climbing up to “number one”

In such delusion of a fantasy

That never hits reality

Until they fall

So then I get another call…

But I can’t save them

They make me empty

I know too many of this kind

All I want is peace of mind

So I turn off to blind

Shutting down my eyes

I cannot see

Or bare the conscious of my soul

I hear no more…

And in this silence I am whole

Without the noise

From the traffic they create

And the problems that they make

I’m not a doctor

I’m not a therapist

I have so much love to give

And they eat all of my kindness

Like starvation for the pigs

All they know to do is take

So they come back to fill their plate

But I am gone now

I can’t just throw myself away

Not anymore…

I want more…

I want what I have to offer

And the love I have to give

All I want to do is live…

If I were a love song

I’d sing it to you, dear

But with the noise from all these people it would be hard for you to hear me clear

So I must go now

And let them figure out their lives

When it’s all over

There will be peace before the prize

And even if the greatest prize is peace from all these lies

I’ve made it home

I’d be alone

Just as I was when surrounded by the many that don’t know

Agnostic of my heart and soul

So I let them go

I let it go

Then maybe I will know how good it feels

To be better off alone

 

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